Some of us have them, and some of us don't. Most of us call it a manifestation of our childhood desires most of us call it the traumatic result of a tragic childhood experience. Either way, I am here to confess that I am one of these people who had an imaginary friend, No name.
To experts, No name is said to be the manifestation of my imagination. But hes all too real for me. No he doesn't have a pink coat and run around with a fluffly tail. To me hes just invisible, but I could sense it if hes around. When I was young, he was a helpful bit and accompanied me when my parents were at work. But recently I've grown up and I've learned its time to ignore these manifestation. And they usually do disappear, but no, not No name.
Instead to me, I believe he had merged with my emotion of hatred, grudge and vengence. Every single time he is around I would hear a small voice telling me pessimistic ideas. I have learnt to adapt and live with this 'voice' but I just though I would like to express my feelings towards this entity.
During one night I had a nightmare about No name, I saw him dangling in mid air with a rope around his neck, he looks about nine. People were all in outfits from the victorian era, and they all seemed angry and happy at the same time at No name's suffering. Right at the moment I woke up with a strong heat flash and a few dash of migraines and panic attacks - I couldn't sleep well that night.
After doing some research, I've found out that accused 'witches' and anyone afflicted were to be hanged and burned between February 1692 and May 1693. Perhaps it was instinct? I instantly began looking at my own reflection in the mirror and told 'No name' that it was time to move on, it was time to let go of past grudges and go for the light ahead in the future. After several hours of reminiscing, I smiled. I knew I had done a good deed, and 'No name' have rested in peace. Was he a spirit walking on Earth hoping to find love? Or was he just a manifestation of my childhood experiences? We would never know, but rest assured a part of him would always be inside of me, it might be strange to some, or down right terrifying to others. But keep in mind, that you might have your own manifestations without you knowing.
"The mind has a mind of its own" - Quote by some dead guy.
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P O E M S
place where I put my poems.
Bloodlust
Walking through the hard rocking ground,
Snifing through the air like a grey hound,
Hunger drives the animal through,
It is waiting for an unlucky fool,
The scent of the unfortunate prey is near,
The prey should be trembling in fear,
As the moon arises to the sky,
Red-shot eyes that petrifies,
Edged-sharp teeth is revealed,
The fur of the animal is concealed,
As it lies in wait for the right leap,
It jumps so high it lands a few feet,
Its teeth puncturing deep into the flesh,
Swirling, twisting, gushing and slash,
And at last the prey has died,
A tasty meal keeps the hunger satisfied.
© 2008 All copyright of the poems above belongs to me, and me only. So no dirty-fingers please. :DD
Y O U T U B E L O V E
one boy, two personalities.
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H I M S E L F
me myself and i :D
!Hullo. My name's John and umm, I own this blog? o_O I don't know what to write here, so I m just going to do a general introduction. I am sixteen years old, my birthday is on september 30 ( at the end of the equinox ), I absolutely adore dark poetry and basically any story that revolves around a suitable fantasy. I have the craziest friends ever, a naruto-obsessed zombie that goes by the name of Andrew, Kalai the only sane person in our group, Sharine the girl with issues with cookies and dieting and Mel the gossip girl of five-bee. So I guess thats it?
RANDOM FACTS
i m totally weird.
ONE I am allergic to caffeine. If I get even a sip or scent, I'll have a deep migraine and faint. TWO I ish left-handed! And its the natural-kind too. Even though I think differently from most people that are right-handed ( which is pretty cool ;D ) I cant help but admit that I m clumsy as heck. Also its hard when people ask you to break down information, lefties cant do that, they can only form information then find a pattern. THREE I am aquaphobic, it means I m afraid of being in a large mass of water, chyeah. FOUR I am a very superstitous-person. Its normal for me to believe in dark matter and other worldly energies. FIVE I am absolutely freaked out by any bug that eats plants. Its true, honest. I'll die of a heart attack when I m near a cockroach or a grasshopper, but I am fine with spiders. Infact I adore black widows and tarantulas :D SIX I love rainy-days. :D SEVEN I hate listing out long lists, so yeah this is cold-hard evidence ;)
T O D O L I S T
this should be useful.
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D E D I C A T I O N S
to the people and things that i appreciate.
My dogs. ( Girly && Cohen )
Why? : Because they keep me accompany when i m down :(
Pn. Mariam. ( My biology teacher, no surprise right? )
Why? : For being so patient and sweet to us :DDD!
* Will add more in the future *
Imaginary friend.
2:58 AM - Monday, August 11, 2008
F L A S H B A C K
just incase you want to see my old posts.
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
S L A V E S
obey meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Lemon-king.
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Paulineeee.
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Steven.
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Other slaves.
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Other slaves.
