When I was 7, my parents changed my school to a primary school nearby our new home. Atfirst I though it was a nice school, and I tried to make friends with the people around me. Turns out everyone there was harsh and cruel.
They would just glance at you and then they would just look away in a manner as if they're disgusted by you. They won't share with you, they don't want anything to do with you because you're just not cool. And they would take every oppurtunity to insult you. - I was a victim of bullying.
In my first day of school during my second year, I ran away from school because I can't stand their bullying anymore. I remember I was late and I tried to find a sit in my new class, no one would offer me a sit, we could atleast share, but no, no one. Then I saw an extra chair and I asked either I could borrow it? They didn't answer and when their friend came in they quickly told them to sit on it. I was confused at that time and I didn't know what I did wrong. I ran home.
Did I do something wrong? Is being friendly a crime in our society? Why does everyone hate me so much? I asked myself. A group of bullies liked to keep books that they wrote to insult about me. They draw explicit pictures of me, and I was always the bad guy in all of their fable stories. One time they all ganged up on me and told a teacher that I threw water over one of their mates when I didn't.
The teacher was close to that student so they all brought me to see the principle and convinced him that I needed disciplinary actions. I received my punishment and I went home and cried as hard as I could to try to wash about all of the suffering. When my parents asked why did my eyes looked red I told them I was sick. I lied. The bullying was not only in the school grounds, the bullies told their parents that I was someone naughty and that I would commit crime in the future. One of the parents confronted me and told me he wanted to see my parents. While his son sat in the car smiling.
Atfirst I was scared because no one would trust me, but I have HAD IT. Enough is enough. I will not be bullied around anymore I told myself in my heart. I literally yelled back at the parent and he was speechless. I told him what in the manner of coming to confront a young eleven year old boy like me personally about issues that I don't even have? I mean do you have evidence? Or are you just stucking up to your blardy fat and obese child? - He ran back to his car.
I have had it! I took all of their hatred books towards me and burned them and teared them to shreds. I was literally angry, and this time I wasn't friendly to them anymore and I got into a small fight with one of their 'leader', I released all my anger at him until he told me to stop. And it was lucky I did or I would have pushed him off the stairs. But I didn't cause I know that was a wrong thing to do. I apologized, but he didn't accept my apology. Its okay I though, as long as I am true to myself.
After some deep reflecting, I found some qualities in myself that made me happy. I expressed these attributes and a slight impulse told me that, these bullies who just puts people down are lower than the low. Starting from that moment I look at them as if they were garden slugs, lazy, posers, self-proclaimed popular and a waste for environment space. I realized they were as boring as heck, they enjoyed skateboarding at that time but all they could do was just flip a skateboard, they couldn't even ride it properly. And also their hangout spot is just under the stairs beside of a drain.
I figured it would be best not to be like them and I was glad I didn't. I met new friends around my neighbourhood and they fiercely defend me against these morons. I was happy then, I had my own circle and I wanted to preserve that moment.
Care to know what happened to these bullies from the days? Well one of them had skin cancer and a case of obesity. The last time I saw him and he tried to be a cool 'hiphop' daddy. LOL, pathetic. One of them got sooo tanned that he looks like a burnt satay. I mean seriously, he would be the perfect example of 'ugly' ( Not that I dislike ugly people, but I can't help but to taunt him for revenge ) and then one of them gets braces, and suffered some freak growth or something, he looks like a cross between a dwarf and a hat stand. And what about the teacher that helped these bullies? Well he became a Moral teacher but recently I saw him, he looked extremly miserable, like, eye strains, dried lips, he looked as if he just came from his grave. I always though, karma got them just in favour of me.
Either way, I hope they learn their lesson from bullying someone whos innocent. Right now I m happily within my circle of loved ones and I want it preserved that way. So if any of you are getting bullied, or you know someone whos getting bullied, don't watch in silence. Do something about it. Tell someone. Get support and trust. Reflect your attributes. Defend yourself and your friends. Avoid fights and ignore it even if they call you names. Bullies are NOTHING to you. They are not worth a pebble for you to listen to. They just say bad things to make them feel great. Remember, you're only judged by what you do, not your face, not your personality, nothing else. Everyone talks bad about somebody else, but never realize what that person feels. You're beautiful and unique in your own way, don't ever ever forget that!
WELCOME.

P O E M S
place where I put my poems.


Bloodlust
Walking through the hard rocking ground,
Snifing through the air like a grey hound,
Hunger drives the animal through,
It is waiting for an unlucky fool,
The scent of the unfortunate prey is near,
The prey should be trembling in fear,
As the moon arises to the sky,
Red-shot eyes that petrifies,
Edged-sharp teeth is revealed,
The fur of the animal is concealed,
As it lies in wait for the right leap,
It jumps so high it lands a few feet,
Its teeth puncturing deep into the flesh,
Swirling, twisting, gushing and slash,
And at last the prey has died,
A tasty meal keeps the hunger satisfied.
© 2008 All copyright of the poems above belongs to me, and me only. So no dirty-fingers please. :DD
Y O U T U B E L O V E
one boy, two personalities.
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H I M S E L F
me myself and i :D

!Hullo. My name's John and umm, I own this blog? o_O I don't know what to write here, so I m just going to do a general introduction. I am sixteen years old, my birthday is on september 30 ( at the end of the equinox ), I absolutely adore dark poetry and basically any story that revolves around a suitable fantasy. I have the craziest friends ever, a naruto-obsessed zombie that goes by the name of Andrew, Kalai the only sane person in our group, Sharine the girl with issues with cookies and dieting and Mel the gossip girl of five-bee. So I guess thats it?
RANDOM FACTS
i m totally weird.
ONE I am allergic to caffeine. If I get even a sip or scent, I'll have a deep migraine and faint. TWO I ish left-handed! And its the natural-kind too. Even though I think differently from most people that are right-handed ( which is pretty cool ;D ) I cant help but admit that I m clumsy as heck. Also its hard when people ask you to break down information, lefties cant do that, they can only form information then find a pattern. THREE I am aquaphobic, it means I m afraid of being in a large mass of water, chyeah. FOUR I am a very superstitous-person. Its normal for me to believe in dark matter and other worldly energies. FIVE I am absolutely freaked out by any bug that eats plants. Its true, honest. I'll die of a heart attack when I m near a cockroach or a grasshopper, but I am fine with spiders. Infact I adore black widows and tarantulas :D SIX I love rainy-days. :D SEVEN I hate listing out long lists, so yeah this is cold-hard evidence ;)
T O D O L I S T
this should be useful.
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D E D I C A T I O N S
to the people and things that i appreciate.

My dogs. ( Girly && Cohen )
Why? : Because they keep me accompany when i m down :(

Pn. Mariam. ( My biology teacher, no surprise right? )
Why? : For being so patient and sweet to us :DDD!
* Will add more in the future *
Pain and suffering.
3:38 AM - Saturday, August 23, 2008
F L A S H B A C K
just incase you want to see my old posts.
July 2008
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S L A V E S
obey meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Lemon-king.
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Paulineeee.
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Steven.
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Other slaves.
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Other slaves.