The clock finally hit 12! I'm officially a young adult now. And eligible for a driving license, chyeah! Beware policemen, John is on the loose.



Heres a poem I wrote for myself. Aren't I sweet? :D

Today is your birthday, the day you were born,
The day your parents cried and named you John,
The birthday cake was eaten, and the presents was torn,
You found that beloved toy that you always had fond,

Today is the day, where th sun shines bright,
And the tunes of melodies hums to the night,
Your memories would flow in their dreamlike state,
It is time to reminiscent on the success you have made,

With every candle that is blown with your breath,
Stare with a gaze, and think of what you have left,
Look into the melting wax and think of the years,
How you wish your granddad and grandmom was here,

Look at your parents and look at your friends,
It is exactly like how a fairy-tale would end,
Close your eyes and make a meaningful wish,
Let your hopes and dream unravel and become unleashed.

- Copyrights © John Ng.

Heres a peek at the cake XD Not exactly the most beautiful flower in the floral bed, but hey atleast it tastes dainty and sweet.



I'm just really happy that I'm still healthy and sane at the age of 17 ( Unexpected-ness ) And that most people still remembered my birthday :D Infact a bunch of my friends have gathered together and organised an event for me tommorow in Midvalley. ( Or should I say later today? ) I'm honestly curious at how things would go and what this 'thing' they were about to give me. Meh, either way I'll find out myself by tommorow ;D

Recently the holidays had just set in, yay! And I'm staying up late until like 5:00 am. Which is great, I feel a little energetic. Yes, you're probably going to say "WTF! U getz tired sleepingz soz l@t3!". Well my answer to you is, everyone has a different body with different needs and advantages. And get a dictionary.

But yeah I've been scaring my family members alot at night, cause usually I'll turn on only like one light and I usually wear black clothes so, yeah you get the point. I mean wouldn't you freak out at night too if you see a figure typing on the keyboard? I think my dad almost clubbed me, accidently thinking I'm a burglar or something. And its probably a common sight at night seeing my mom freak out when she sees me reading blog posts at night.



I mean, am I really that scary? Especially at night? Ofcourse not! Its the only time in the day ( in this case, night ) that I feel active and refreshed. Its awesome. And you should ACCEPT that. My parents are forcing me to sleep earlier now for they don't want their son to be some kind of nocturnal vampire or something.

Well I really should be getting some sleep, its almost morning here, 5:37 am. You know how I feel about the morning sunlight, ewh. Oh and my b-day is 2 days from this post, hope people actually remembered.

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Today while I was doing my daily surfs on Youtube, I came across a video about poverty. In the beginning it shows a man painting several realistic pictures of children and right in the middle sat god.

The video proceeds by telling the story of every single one of the children in the painting's stories. One girl was abandonned by her parents and an undertaker adopted her, so she practically lives in a cemetary. A boy about seven stood outside of a restorant, watching as the people inside feasting on foods that he had never even had the chance to taste. Very heart warming story, and it makes you realize just how lucky we all are.

These children already have a rough start at life, and they have been working since they were born, some even without parents. I admit, that it brings small tears into my eyes. I mean, after watching that video, I feel guilty for sleeping on a comfortable bed, eat warm and fresh food, have a rejuvenating bath and even just sitting there in my own home. I don't know why but theres a sense in me that makes me feel like sheltering these poor children and nurishing them.

I was born from a poor family so I know how they had felt, and when I was small I too, had to work with my parents in markets. But I managed to struggle with support from loved ones, and after many contributions and thanks to older siblings, we're finally financially stable. I remember the days where I would had to stay in the van, washing fruits and picking off the dead matter, then wrapped them in a foil and placed them in the refrigerator. It wasn't easy but it was a necessity.

Well I think I just might deserve what I have now, for I've suffered enough to earn them. But it still makes you feel a little guilty, with a Nokiablackberry phone on your left and an ipod shuffle to your right. And today morning, I just woke up and found an envelope under my pillow. In it wrote:

"Happy early-birthday John!

Heres some well-earned money you could use to buy the nintendo Wii, you've been craving.

- Love Mom&&Dad"

I was really happy that I was finally getting it soon, and thanked my parents a billion times. But I decided not to use the money, I wanted to save it just incase it might come in handy, my craving and desires could wait. I mean these children barely even had a penny, and even if they do they'll savour it with their lives. And that is just the lesson I've learnt from them.

Oh and incase you were wondering:

The sum of money is : RM 1,540 ( Sorry, just had to credit to my parents =D )
The video is: here.

The morning glared through the glassy windows of my class. The form teacher is sitting there, her eyes shifting from left to right. I sat there, tapping the plastic table with my wooden pencil. Sharine sat beside of me, one of her hands on her notepad while Kalai sat infront of me, drinking water and Mel, who is emitting alot of stressed vibes from behind of me.

"Anda boleh bermula kertas sekarang." Said the teacher sarcastically. We're taking our english papers. And you all know what that means. What? You don't? Well its this time where the smell of A1 answers attracts your classmates. I noticed they were sitting far from me during physics, but for english its so close you could literally whack one of their heads with a plastic bottle without overstretching your arms.

Everyone around me kept asking questions, I felt vulnerable, like a cornered animal about to be slaughtered. Well except this time its just three of your bestfriends using you, but still. Heres a dialogue on what happened:

Me [ thinking to self ]: Oh wow, Sonnet 18. This is gonna be a piece of cake!
Sharine: Psst! Jooohn ..
Me: Yeah?
Sharine: What is the answer for question number two?
Me: Deeeeeee.
Sharine: Okay thanks.

15 minutes later.

Kalai:Psst! John!
Me: What?
Kalai: What is the meaning of fairness?
Me: [ slaps head ] Beauty.
Kalai: Okay thanks.

14 minutes and 33 seconds later.

Mel: PSSST! Jooohn!
Me: Yes, mel?
Mel: What is 'semasa' and 'berkesan' in english?
Me: While and effective.
Mel: Okay thanks.

Just when you thought they are satisfied? NOOOOOO. You have never been more wrong in your life, bub.

Five minutes before exam papers is over.

Sharine: Jooooohn ..
Me: -ignores-
Sharine: Jooooohn! Pssst! Joooooohn!
Me: -still ignoring-
Sharine: JOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHN. -throws eraser-
Me: OW -rubbing head- WHAT?!
Sharine: How to do the sonnet 18 part ..
Me: WHAT?! Its already been an hour and a half and you still haven't done that yet ..
Sharine: Yeah but .. -interrupted-
Kalai: Psst! What's RVSP? Its in section A.
Me: Huh? What?
Kalai: RVSP laaah .. -interrupted-
Mel: Joooooohn! PSST! How to do summary?!
Fazlinda: Psst! Number six.
Aliff: John, apa jawapan section B? Yang buku tu ..
Me: Teacher can I go to the bathroom please ..
Sharine,Kalai,Mel: NO! Your staying right here or ELSE!
Pn.Mariam: Yeah okay John the tag is on the table infront.
Me: -flees-
Sharine,Kalai,Mel: I am meeeeeeelttiiiiiing ... ahhhhhh. [ Okay maybe this wasn't true but they did sighed as I walked out =) ]

So what thats pratically what happened today during the english papers. It was quite easy actually but the summary is very time-consuming. Either way, it was a good day, atleast I didn't get headache for staying up late, haha.

Three days ago since the posting of this blog entry. The CERN had created a machine that is absolutely huge , underground. This machine took many years to create and great minds from all over the world contributed to it. This machine is probably the most incredible machine ever created by man during this era.

Whats the purpose of this machine? Well from what I could understand, it brings two atoms around a huge circle, 50 000 times a second. Then they would merge the pathway forcing the atoms to collide with one another, creating something known as the 'god particle'. The very first atom created right after the few seconds of the 'big bang'.

However, there has been a mass hysteria and rumours spreading about saying that this machine is capable of creating a blackhole. A blackhole that is capable of engulfing the entire Earth or cause a nuclear explosion. Either way, me no likey. For a second there my heart really DID stopped beating to be honest. I mean a blackhole on Earth? That's pretty new. And why must they operate this machine the day before 9-11?

That day, I stood in my room, waiting for the 'wave' my mind imagined. Where the building moved, people screaming and every single atom shattered to the blackhole that awaits. Haha, how stupid of me to actually believe it. It never happened, we're still here aren't we?

But personally a part of me felt disappointed ..

Today while filling out a contest sheet in the newspaper, I stumbled across the 'bar of truth'. It reads 'What is your religion?'. I stared into the blank space, pondering what to write. Buddhism? Nawh I already wrote that for my report card. christianity? I can't for I am not truly one. Frustrated, I shredded the papers apart.

What religion am I? I've asked my parents several times. The only answer I could collect was 'nature'. And they said no more, no matter how hard I asked. But I don't want to be viewed as an atheist, I believe in a god and its hard to describe her. My mother said its only natural as she has many faces and many identities.

I searched around the internet hoping to find something with a relation to both nature and a female deity. And there it was, infront of my white screen; The mother goddess. The scrolled up and down and soon I realized why my mother said she had, had many identities. Ranging from the Egyptians ,Sumerian, Mesopotamian, Greek, Celtic ,Germanic ,Turkic ,Siberians and even christianity - she appeared

The Earth Mother is a motif that appears in many mythologies. The Earth Mother is a fertile goddess embodying the fertile earth and typically the mother of other deities, and so, also are seen as patronesses of motherhood. This is generally thought of as being because the earth was seen as being the mother from whom all life sprang. Even among those who are non-believers, expressions such as Mother Earth and Mother Nature are in common usage, personifying the Earth's ecology as a fertile and sustaining mother.

"She watches over all of us, her arms formed the clouds that slowly shaded us, she cries at how we suffered and provides us with water, she balances every life to make sure every life get its equal oppurtunities, she feeds us fresh and nutritous foods to drive away our hunger. However, her rage at humanity can be seen through the crushing waves of a tsunami, the geological movement of an earthquake, the inferno formed from a volcano and the gusting winds of a hurricane."

Strange as it is, I felt relieved. I am not atheist, but I m one without a religion. However, that doesn't mean I don't believe in a god. Before I say anything else, I'll like to state that this post is in no way to offend people of other religion. Infact believing in the Mother goddess doesn't mean I can't believe in other religions, as long as it accepts a believer of another. My real religion is of druidic origins incase you were wondering. Believing that everything that nature created is sacred and is worthy of worship itself and its our duty as a believer to preserve and protect every single one , of life.

Yaaaay. The story I sent to star newspaper actually got published. It was a joke story me and a few friends online created at first actually. Of how we met and we overdramatized about it. But I'm pretty happy to see that they actually published it for me ^_^ Also, I wish they wouldn't edit the ending .. It was supposed to be:

"We promised one another to write to a local newspaper company about our little story, so that it will forever lay evidence as it prints thousands of pages around the states about the story between a Scandinavian girl and a Malaysian boy."

By the way its a first ever romance slash drama piece I have ever created. I usually focus on horror and fantasy genres but heck, I'll gave it a try. Heres link:

!PANCAKES

Fats,lipids,cholestrol,lemak, sambal,burgers.


One of the biggest controversy of this time is, yep you got it, fast food. Now let me admit that I too eat fast food sometimes, but only like once in a month or sometimes never ( because I can't stand grease and cheese, yuck ). The only fried food you can say I ever eat is the mere Nasi Lemak in the canteen, but lets scratch that guilt off my records shall we?

Let me tell you some facts first, alright?

(1#)Almost about 70% of the human population is obese.

(2#)KFC used to stand for Kitchen Fresh Chicken, but now its Kentucky FRIED Chicken.

(3#)Most fried food contain trans fat, which is a kind of unsaturated oil that increases your chances of getting a coronary heart disease. ( Isn't that fun? )

(4#)Obesity decreases the chance of the effectiveness of your umm, gametes. Meaning its quite unlikely for you to have children or even have healthy children if you are over the given weight.


Now that, that's done with. Let me tell you what happened that day. You see me and my parents were going out for dinner out of the city ( somewhere, I don't know o.o ), while waiting for the meals to come I decided to take a look around the old buildings and this acacia tree. And then I heard this sudden squeal and it was a constantly squeal before a loud 'thump!' was heard. Behind the old buildings, was a slaughter house. A dairy slaughter house to be exact.

They were slowly killing each pig with this wooden shaft with a long nail at the end of it and blood rushed out of its drain, it was horrible. I yelled a loud 'hey!' at the man in his 40's but he ignored me and he went hasily into his warehouse. I decided not to offend an armed man but the scene made me feel just what animals goes through because of our needs. I am telling you, every single day a thousand animal dies to make us alive in the most torturous ways you could thing of. Chickens in ( dare not name the copyrighted company ) gets their beaks cut off and left to bleed ( because beaks are not a favourable delicacy in most dishes ) and they get hanged to this wheel where they would be dumped into HOT, LIQUID and BLACK tar.


So saaad.

Don't believe me? Try searching around for how YOUR fried food particularly meat and how its made. That night I lost my appetite and I only drank the chinese tea that was offered to me. Its just plain horrible, imagine if humanity is breed to feed some other race, where they would spend most of their lifes in dirty cages, and when the time comes they would torture you before they kill you and use your flesh to feed their generations. That is exactly how its like for animals.

And don't give me any BS about how humanity is a stronger race and it deserves to eat the lesser animals. That is total bull. Infact if you ask me, humanity is the lowest of the low. I mean, no other animal almost completly destroy its own planet and thats just how stupid we are and too blind to see what we have done or too lazy to do anything about it.

I don't know about you but I am going to refrain myself from eating fried food to atleast only once a month. I even stopped eating the greasy canteen foods now and bring my own. Alright now ended my rant, back to obesity effects.

I've seen quite an amount of people who tried dieting and I honestly can't see any effects at all. Like this one person right? -cough- She tried dieting, saying how she could do it and feeling confident shes going to be a twig soon. One week later. I've observed her, the ENTIRE week she ate, Fried rice, with Fried chicken added with Fried wedges, sometimes Fried sausages and topped with oily sambal. I was like "WHAT THE BUCK?!" and when she comes back to class, with sambal in the lips she say she is STILL DIETING. Is that what you consider dieting nowadays?!

I bet atleast five people in your class is fat, and atleast 7 teachers you know are fat too. And atleast 3 relatives who are obese and you would see atleast 9 obese people when you go shopping. That is a FACT. However theres some organisms who are fat naturally, as in their genes made them fat and they are understandable to be fat but only because of a certain disorder to their genetic make-up.


On the left a mouse unable to produce leptin resulting in obesity.
On the right a normal mouse for comparison.

Some people/animals are unable to produce leptin, a protein whichs helps in metabolism, thus making them obese. But this is in NO WAY an excuse to be fat, infact the treatment for the lack of leptin is actually dieting, -demented laughter-.

Anyways, this post has come to a halt, please think about all the pain animal goes through when you eat meat! Human is able to survive normally if they just ate plants! Avoid eating fried food always and think about the flabs you'll get when you reach fourty, OH MY GAWD.

Evil giraffeeees.

Since I was only like 2 years old, or even the month after my first birthday, my parents would bring me to the zoo. The reason I m reminiscing this is because I want to recall back all the good early childhood memories. So recently, well not really actually months ago but I didn't have a blogger account then. I decided to gather up two of my neighbouring friends. ( Well not really, just two guys who wouldn't stop bothering me to go online to some geeky MORPG or something ) But anyways, I felt like having company, so I invited them along.



Marcus and Tommy being stupid.

That was like, one of the best days of my life ever. I can finally get away from school-life ( A.K.A our favourite history and moral teachers ) and I could finally get a glimpse at an otter ( Don't ask why I have a desire to do so, its a long story. ) Heck, I even fed it dead fish.


OTTEEEEEER. -hugs-

Then we went to this pen with OVER-FRIENDLY giraffes in it. Gosh I swear its trying to lick my face off, such a long tongue. We've also visited the aquarium, which is pretty awesome in its own right and Marcus was a little over excited at the turtles. ( Hint: He likes turtles. )


Some giant tortoise.

Rare one in a million flower horn ;D

Sharine the obese catfish.

And we saw this rather, funny raccoon. Its literally playing dead, but after several pebble throws from Tommy we concluded that it was still alive, and cranky.


No, its not dead.

And lastly we went into the 'glow room', rather suiting name for its features. Everything white in the room would glow an eerie blue and me and Tommy were the center of attention to everyone in that store at that time :D


Tilt your head.

Yes, I m a terrible photographer I know. But the day ended sweetly as it drizzled a little and we got to see what would animals do in the rain. Orang utans used leaves to cover themselves, giraffes and elephants hid within their cozy shelters, lions layed under the trees, raccoon sleeping the same stupid position since we last saw it and otters literally 'dancing' to the rain. All in all, it was a wonderful day ;D